Hopefully,

Just showered and ate breakfast. I really need to start exercising soon, cause i've been too down to exercise these few days. Screw it?? Reply to her post first.. I don't want to but i can't stop myself. There are ppl who wanna go, so don't say i'm just giving you leftovers cause you don't know the story.. I don't mind i don't mind you going out with guys, i don't even have the right to care. So what if i did? I admit i did comment abit about you and him, but i never did make a direct statement to stop you going out with him, don't assume i did please. I know you haven't gone out with a guy for so long, i was so possesive in the past i restricted you from contact with any others. Which part of this 3-4weeks show that i don't understand that you need to concentrate on studies. All i did was attempt to at least gain a litle bit of trust from you, i got turned down in advance every single time. Look at your post.. thats like assuming so much, what did i do to assume? I don't understand what did i do to make you think that way. Attitudes can't be changed, no matter how hard i try, it'll still be inside me. I am still rash, i agree i ttm sometimes, but i'm still impatient? I've been trying to cover my attitude when its trying to show, why can't you look at the way i am covering it up, why must you look at the point that it is still there, cause it will be there, forever, i can't help it. Guys are supposed to be more emotional than girls.. I admit i did treat you real badly in the past, but why compare it to treating a dog or a slut? No matter how badly i treated you, i still cared for you, i still loved you, theres no way i could have treated you to that extent. The past was a big fucking regret, why must you constantly dig it up to throw it at me when i am trying so hard to change, when you know i'm putting in so much effort. And why make others sound like they are the third party when they are just trying to help.. Idk if this is harsh or not after this i'll be keeping it to myself alright (: Don't get too offended by this post, this post is about feelings of yesterday, today is a better day.
"To cut off all contacts with him/her is the best way to forget an ex" (?)
I needed 1 last hug from you so bad last night, before you go. the hug would have meant so much, but i know i won't get it, cause if i did i won't even be in this situation. Why did you have to love me so much, that its so hard for me to let go.. Why did you have to be the sacrifice for this change? This time i'll fulfil your wish. But like my dad and you said "If we are fated to be together, someday we'll still be together" I love you dad, for being able to clear my thoughts, and set my mind straight in less than 5 mins, i love you for understanding too, i'm sorry i didn't treasure the girl you and mum and so many others loved so much.

Gosh, no mood post anymore, later then post about ytd and some photos

Edit:
I wasn't trying to prove you wrong, maybe there was a little of unjust in your post too? Have you looked at things from my side too? I'm supposed to be strong, but deep inside we are still weak. Does it mean that i can't express myself just because i'm the guy? I should be the one caring no more, cause its so hard to exprss myself just because i'm a guy. I'm already not caring that you treat me like nothing k? Put yourself in my shoes too.. For weeks, have my relationship improved with you at all? All i was trying was to be a friend and you won't even gimme a chance. And i already admitted i did say things about you and your gk. When did i refer to my friends?
I didn't fucking edit anything out of the post. You see wrong isit? Its my post i know i didn't edit it. Go wear go contacts, i'm getting like fucking pissed over this when i was just trying to clear some shit up and you blow it up big time. Yayaya GOODBYE. Stop acting like you know alot, you don't know alot more than i do either. Act like you're the nice one when you blew this up -.-
Hah i know i did deserve it, boo you don't even care how much ppl try. Be nice to others then, why would i care when you've become so self centered and if thats the way you treat ppl, aren't you just hiding your true self from those important to you? Hah whatever, i've seen you're true self. I loved the side that was a lie.

Wth do you mean by i win? I wasn't even trying to do anything.
Its more like YOU WIN, i'm outta your life
Haha i don't really care if you do it or not, you're just a fucking different person. You hold on to a grudge and won't let go. Learn to let go. I admit i need you. Don't have to use that to act like you're the best in the world. Assuming that i don't look from your side, when you just don't see the effort, because theres no result.
FUCKING GOODBYE FOR THE LAST TIME

Um look who started bombing hurtful stuff first MS DUPER NICE? hmm?

Boo, then you don't know how much some ppl care. You didn't change ok, you just showed it to me. For weeks, you know i've been trying to give you all that, hah you didn't even bother to look at it and brushed me aside, is that how you look for friends? Because they don't have anything against you? I've let go, i'm doing this cause your words hurt OTHERS that are just trying to help. Get the fact that i'm over you, i just don't want more to get hurt LOL. Why must you live your live according to quotes, are they all true? If you want reputation i saved it for you. Gave my face to you and you threw it away, isn't that enough to save it? Want me to give you my fucking life to save it?

My mum, my dad, they loved, they cared, they were concerned over you. You just didn't see. Do you even care about them? Just open your big eyes bigger, there are so many things you don't see, and you don't appreciate cause you don't see. You are becoming just like me man. I didn't know you are like this, i thought you were fucking nice even after the weeks to come, there were stil thoughts that you were nice.

Living by quotes, see what i mean. I can just keep quiet all the time and say you're in the wrong. Hmm?

To your friends that are reading this and are here to hate me, "I was the jerk in the past, scold me, hit me, torture me. Think that i'm still a jerk. But there are just too many things that you don't see." So i don't care

I don't want anymore people to get hurt because of my past acts